And I just smiled...

And I just smiled...

 

It's all incredible...my tears didn't make the ink readable

I tried all feeble pulls towards a clear channeling

Handling the business, dismantling what I'm risking

And though you wonder for whom the bell tolls

And who the hell knows that these shell toes felt blows?

Beliefs and fear...have you've ever felt those?

I wished for heartfelt enclosure, you deflected a need

Now I read my thoughts after with an effortless plead

Think of me, lead your feelings, and appraise my emotions

Passion has turned into devotion, a motion in progress

Slowly motivating my notions within this conquest

I recall you once begging me not to hold your hand

All I wanted to do was to show the world I was your man...

You said something about "let's be free and remain unlocked"

I'd say I wasn't shocked, but my passion was stained n blocked 

You gave me a kiss, blinked and said you liked me...

I thought I love you back, and figured mutually it wasn't likely

Love was blind but those blue eyes had me mesmerized

To me you were more an angel dressed in your disguise

"No shackles; I like you but my heart needs to be stay open

Remember I'm leaving soon and I don't want to leave hoping..."

And so the summer went by, we dated like a normal pair

Love formed the air, still it felt like an abnormal sphere

I walked on clouds and you had your feet in the gravel

My feelings unraveled a quest to stop you from the travel

Normal kisses, made normal love, had a normal relation

I thought one day to give you a formal invitation...

Stay with me; please don't jeopardize it all by saying farewell

This heaven would be hell without you airing me your spells

I saw divinity, a female with more beauty than...incomparable

You had me...as something for a minute...comparable

And so you called me...said those bags were packed

I acted like it wasn't a thing, Ì mean how should I react?

The day came and we stood there at the airport holding hands...

And In about 13 hours her plane would slowly land

Time stopped and stressed people rushed amongst the gates

She said; "I'll give you a call when I get there if it isn't too late"

I said yes, and she stepped towards the escalator n left...

As her body slowly disappeared down the stairs I smiled...

She waved good bye and shouted "see ya in a while"

And I just smiled...waved back, no tears just emptiness

A bland reaction; something between needs n senselessness

All I wanted was a last senseless kiss, a proof of concern

But all I'm left with is a lesson learned of yearning...

Turning towards the parking lot knowing she'll be returning

And I just smiled...